48 Hours

Just thought I would drop a line and report in on the quitting smoking. I am well beyond my 48hr mark and doing well surprisingly. When I finally told Mom I was smoking again, she said she had her suspicions. When we suddenly stop talking about it, that's kinda a dead giveaway. I partially did not want to tell people before because I thought I could just put them down again. I also did not want to become that guy again. Part of me also wanted to not discourage anyone else quitting. The lastly, I was embarrassed I let a good 6 months go.

None the less, I was not sure if I wanted to write a lot on Stupie about it. I just reread what I posted a year ago (quitting smoking label), and the funny part was that it helped a little to reread it. I am not trying this with a homeopathic approach I did last year. I gave that a brief and futile go with Scotty just as we left Minneapolis. I made it 22 hours and gave in to craving with the lame excuse that I was afraid of being that spaced out on stage for our first show the next day. Yeah, it was a lame excuse.

As for this effort, it is chemically backed. I have a patch on and thus far doing alright. It helps a little that I got smacked with a hella back sinus problem Mon night and developed a crink in my neck that would not even allow me to look to the right. All that fun together just made life on the whole a weird and difficult place. The neck is better as are the sinus', and I am still going strong. It helped a little too that my shaved head serves as a constant reminder things are different.

So here I am again on the right course. Sorry for any feelings of betrayal on not being more forthright till now, but I hope this helped explain where I was coming from. What really got to me from rereading the previous year's posts was all the support. It was with that in mind I felt like coming clean. I definitely need you all!