Don't Be That Guy

Is it just me or do you find yourself often thinking, "what the hell am I doing?" There seems so many times lately where I see how I want to react or be and run screaming towards a less desirable reaction. I want so badly to be more patient, to want less, to be more reasonable. So often though I find myself defending pointless positions and snapping before listening. It's good to have an ideal, but it haunts me sometimes too.